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If there were physical abuse... I could have evidence...

I could have reasons enough to run away...


I've been keeping all my feelings to myself for years. And yes, I'm at my limit. Tonight was unbearable. I wanted them to say, "we won't pay for your tuition anymore" or something like "get out of this house, we don't want you anymore, you're useless."
Words weren't suppose to hurt... their actions do. The way they look at me. I wanted to ask, "am I still your daughter? I'm the only one you've got to educate which is just months away, and you're complaining? I know I couldn't. I can't even use the word HATE.

All I know is that I wanted to run away... I don't want to live with them. Somehow all my life I would wait for them to say it to me so that I'll go away, without wanting to look back, without that pain.. at least they could've told me straight... I could've accepted that the problem was me. Even if I was to run away, I don't want to burden my friends who has their own problems to tackle.

where do I go now...
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:blackrose: i've caused a rift so deep that nothing will ever fill it

i haven't cause pain to anyone else

but i DID...

and i can't forgive myself

all because of my agony...

my own pain is hurting

someone i love...

that i couldn't live myself with it

why is it?

everytime i would think of someone else

someone would be hurt

why is it...

that if you love someone else...

you will hurt somebody else's feelings too...

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:icongloomywanderer:
I know it hurts a lot, but I hope that you'll feel better soon. I've been there and it's really depressing. I still am now. Hope you'll find you're inner peace soon. =)
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:iconnocturne-hime:
~nocturne-hime Oct 15, 2004  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you... for your concern... -.-
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:iconnawheera:
~Nawheera Oct 14, 2004  Professional General Artist
Hold tight, dear :hug:
Everything passes, this will pass too.
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:iconnocturne-hime:
~nocturne-hime Oct 14, 2004  Hobbyist Photographer
i just hope so... :cling:
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:iconjigga-jayb:
bakes at toma lang katapat nyan
hehe.. :D

get well soon! ^.^
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:iconnocturne-hime:
~nocturne-hime Oct 11, 2004  Hobbyist Photographer
wahehehehe... don't remind me! :faint:

salamat :)
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:iconlordwheatley:
~LordWheatley Oct 11, 2004   Photographer
I know what you mean about missing people, im ill so I cant see anyone either v_v

I hope that the flu doesnt stay with you for much longer ^^ Take Care
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:iconnocturne-hime:
~nocturne-hime Oct 11, 2004  Hobbyist Photographer
wahihihih... yeah :nod:

aww... thanks for the concern! :aww:
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:iconflynfreako:
the flu is going around here too... so i'm waiting for my turn to get it >.< hope you get better soon!
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:iconnocturne-hime:
~nocturne-hime Oct 11, 2004  Hobbyist Photographer
you want to get the flu...? :confused:

ehehe... thankies ^^;
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