I could have reasons enough to run away...
I've been keeping all my feelings to myself for years. And yes, I'm at my limit. Tonight was unbearable. I wanted them to say, "we won't pay for your tuition anymore" or something like "get out of this house, we don't want you anymore, you're useless."
Words weren't suppose to hurt... their actions do. The way they look at me. I wanted to ask, "am I still your daughter? I'm the only one you've got to educate which is just months away, and you're complaining? I know I couldn't. I can't even use the word HATE.
All I know is that I wanted to run away... I don't want to live with them. Somehow all my life I would wait for them to say it to me so that I'll go away, without wanting to look back, without that pain.. at least they could've told me straight... I could've accepted that the problem was me. Even if I was to run away, I don't want to burden my friends who has their own problems to tackle.
where do I go now...
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i haven't cause pain to anyone else
but i DID...
and i can't forgive myself
all because of my agony...
my own pain is hurting
someone i love...
that i couldn't live myself with it
why is it?
everytime i would think of someone else
someone would be hurt
why is it...
that if you love someone else...
you will hurt somebody else's feelings too...








Everything passes, this will pass too.
hehe..
get well soon! ^.^
salamat
I hope that the flu doesnt stay with you for much longer ^^ Take Care
aww... thanks for the concern!
ehehe... thankies